End Up Okay

by Matilda Phan

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i wrote this one out in february before the world started drastically changing and i felt something really special about it. compared to the other songs on the record that we’re working on, this one felt like it needed to be released immediately and there was no time to waste. that gut reaction feels more relevant than ever.

we are all going through collective grief right now, no matter how large or small it is. we are never alone in these feelings. this song is about going through those stages of losing life as you know it, being wildly uncertain, wishing things were different, and then realizing there is no other way out but through. it’s about accepting that being in limbo is apart of the process and hoping that things will end up okay by the time you make it out. and you know they will. then hoping that sentiment is enough to keep you going. because it always has and always will.

once this is all over and we return to another new normal, i hope you're able to check-in with all of these changes and make your peace with them. make a friend out of this new life, meet it in a cafe, and find the joys in living it as it is.

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Maybe if I tried a little harder then
I could get my way
Built us up a house in my head with two chairs
Was it a mistake?

Now I dance alone again
It's so lonely to lose a friend to fate
I can't even imagine how the
Future will look now, but it's okay

Oooo
I'm floating in space
Oooo
Surrounded by your name
Oooo
Closer to the day
Oooo
I'll end up okay

Who's to say what went wrong or what went right?
There's no one here to blame
But if you keep your door open and leave the light on
Then I'll do the same

But I know that I'll survive
I can't wait for what feels right today
All I wanna do is cry so
I'll listen to my teary eyes and pray
I'll play it safe

Oooo
I'm floating in space
Oooo
Surrounded by your name
Oooo
Closer to the day
Oooo
I'll end up okay

We couldn't have tried it harder, now I see there
Was no other way
If you find your way back to me, we could be friends
And meet in a café

But all I want for you is freedom, if love is real then
We were never fake
Still I find it hard to pretend that I won't think of
Your face everyday

Built us up a house in my head with two chairs
I'll tuck it away
I'll play it safe

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released May 1, 2020
Written by Matilda Phan
Produced by Taylor Neal

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